By Bob Lowry
No, my dissatisfaction is strictly with me and my lifestyle at the moment. There has been no precipitating event or action. There wasn’t a switch that was suddenly thrown and I woke up living a unsatisfying retirement. It is just a feeling that has been building for at least a month.
I am spending too much time reading. I take too many naps during the day. I watch too much Netflix at night to fill the time until bedtime. I realize these are some classic early warning signs of clinical depression, but that isn’t it. I am not depressed, I am just without a focus, a spark, or something that really excites me. And, I don’t seem to know where to turn to ignite the fire.
An example? I am planning all of our itinerary for our RV trip in July – not because it really has to all happen 7 months ahead of time, but because it gives me something to do. That isn’t good.
So, what am I going to do about all this? I haven’t a clue. I am stuck in neutral with no clear route forward. I have no doubt I will figure things out. At some point something will click and I will have a full plate again.
But, for now, not so much.